getloww

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 03:56:48 GMT

I have been working so much lately. Ill have about 300 dollars for only one week! So much better the what shitty place winndixe paid me. Im so glad im mout of that place. It was such a shitty place. And the people there.... eh. Im in a better place. I have only had 2 puerto ricans come through my line. so its a better clientel. I dont know Im just looking forward to that paycheck.

xmas soon.
and i cant wait. Im spending it with justin <3 this is going to be so specail!

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 02:01:40 GMT

i hate migrans, they make me cry. But justin makes me feel betteer.

ps-
bday wednesday

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 19:52:07 GMT

Im fine with everything now.
Im done getting worked up over little dumb things.

I talked to my mom about everything that has happend lately. She gave me the best advice. She told me I had alot going for me. I have a great boyfriend. I have had the same best friend for over 5 years. I have a decent well paying job. I finally got out of winndixe. (which is good because all they did was talk shit about me) She said she was proud of me. Im glad its all over though. Im not going to look back.

well justin should be on his way over. bye

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 01:33:53 GMT

I loved my Thanksgiving.

and I cant wait to say what i think.
I dont type in on this stupid bullshit

Sat, 04 Nov 2006 04:58:43 GMT

livejournal is gay.
lets make are feelings public guys?

gay as fuck.

im so opinated. oh well.

this just pisses me offfffffff.

but i love love love my life <3

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 20:17:26 GMT

im unhealthy.
I have an infection going through my body. It makes me weak, and makes my heart hurt :[

but the good things in life are;
my friends.
my boyfriend
sex
food
my birthday coming sooon.

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 00:19:56 GMT

I dont see the need to have a live journal. I think its really pointless. But what the hell Im bored out of my mind so let me tell everyone how im feeling? gayyy.

Me and Justin are doing good. Im so in love with him, and what scares me is that I know he can break my heart. i wouldnt know what to do if i didnt have him. He is now a part of my life. My first love. But I think were going to last. Like seriously. I dont see me with no other guy. I like that feeling. He needs to come over though. Miss the boy.

As for other things.

Im going to school tommoroe for the first time in like a week. eh gay. But it will be okay to see people... even though im content with how i am now. I need to catch up. As i am on the topic of school, I talked to my mom aout all these people dropping out and getting there GED, she flipped. but actually its not that bad of an idea. Reallly. These people are already in college. If I could I would totaly drop out. and go for my GED. I mean it even looks like a highschool diploma. Ughh. gay.

Homecoming. I want to go. but there is going to be so much drama. eh. Im done with drama. Like I have changed. Im so chill now. i dont give a shit what people say about me. Its great. and i love how my attitude is now.

I hung out with ally today,. It was nice. we caught up on alottt. Our future togetehr is going to be amazing.

Ohh my mom found a pregnacy test somewhere today. she thinks its mine. deff not.

im not going to smoke for like two months. good goal i guess. :]

bye.

ill never be her

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 20:07:15 GMT

okay so me and justin have been together like 7 months.
were not having problems now. Only me.
I cant accept the fact he still thinks about Nikki.
Its actually is killing me.
You know that one song Hate Me Today. Yeah he has it on his myspace and it is totaly directed to nikki. I think he still loves her. and its killing me, because im falling in love with him. I dont think he will ever put her behind. This is seriously killing me. I cry when I hear that song. :[

well surgey tommorow !

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 19:25:49 GMT

so I hate having my ipod on shuffle. Becuase every song that comes on reminds me of justin.
we need to work on things.

anyways.
school is going to be great. Im actually kinda excited. yea im lame. but im a junior now. its about time i enjoy it. We only have two more years so i want to enjoy it.
shit.

well tonight will be fun.
spill canvas :]

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 04:06:26 GMT

Im so tired of being nice. And not getting shit for it. Fuck it., This is a start of a bad issue. I think im gonna cry. I hung up on justin, and he hasnt called me back. fuck it. fuck this.

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 04:14:32 GMT

have you ever felt like you need to cry. And you are trying. You even listen to a sad song. ITs not working. I have no energy to cry. Im having a brealdown, and nobody even knows it. I like it that way. Im not one that likes attention for this. So why am I writting a lj entry?
beats me. Actually. I have nothing to do. Let it out maybe. Let out everything. Every secret I have kept. Everything I have fucked up.

Breakdowns arent so bad. They make you feel better? No not really. Why am i having a breakdown? Becuase im tired of everyday shit. I try so hard on somethings. I try. I cant do everything. I wanna go away. I want to go to the beach by myself. I wanna cry.
Im so unhealthy its not even funny. Im probably gonna die of a heart attack at the age 20. Im always feeling tired.

i have so much on my mind right now.
I need to clear it.

fuck.

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 04:08:34 GMT

Things need to look up for me.

dahhhh

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 02:30:24 GMT

today was a bad day. I wish things went good today, but they didnt.
so myspace is down and im bored so im going to ramble.

subject one:
job.
I honestly hate my job. It use to be such a fin place to work. The guys there were fun to be around, Like Jordan, Tim, justin..shit its going to hell now. I always say im going to quit, but i havent. I will. Once i get a better job. For sure.

Subject 2:
family.
I love my family. But I also want to go out and have a great time. But then they are always like Meagan your never around blah blah. I am. I hate staying in myy house. If im at home im etheir on the computer, layin out by the pool or sleeping. Thats it. what aboring house,

Subject 3:
My boyfriend.
He means so much to me. But we are completely different. He has so much freedom. He can do whatever he wants and whenever he wants. I knew this was going to be a problem. Well I have no idea how to solve it. Because its getting worse. I cant do much. My mom wont allow it. Ughhh. Another thing is im falling hard for him. I wait for his phonecalls. I shouldnt have too. fuckk this is gonnna get me upset. new subjecttt.

Subject 4:
To who it may concern,
something you shouldnt make public.

Subject 5:
i sometimes hate my life. But sometimes i reallly enjoy it. WTF?!

goodnight

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 15:39:01 GMT

lovers need lawyers.
me and justin argue too much.
jeeeze.
but i could never take anothers hand.

maybe we will see eachother today. but i doubt it.

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 03:13:53 GMT

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 04:56:11 GMT

I hate how I feel right now.

Justin hasnt called me all day. and im sad about that. Boyfriends call there girlfriends!!!!!! FUCKKK. its not that hard. i hate feeling like this. god damnit. ANd to make things worse I gave this one guy my number. I dont know why. But i did. Shitttt. I wanna have fun with my boyfriend. But when he doesnt call me, I freak out. This has got to be normal. Because most of my friends always call their bfs and shit.
omg.

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 03:38:21 GMT

i cant sleeep.
I should probably go to bed being i have work at 9 in the morning. damn.

life isnt that bad sometimes.

my boyfriend. yes he means a lot to me. I would do pretty much anything for that boy. Is that bad? Im a nice girl. Maybe sometimes too nice. i dislike almost all of his ex girlfriends becuase they say he will cheat and fuck me over. FUCK THAT. I think the only bad thing that he needs to wokr on is to call me back. I dont know. Sometimes I get scared because I think about it and im not sinlge. I have a boyfriend. This is real.

I have been staying very deistant from people. Only hanging out with Jello. Chill its not a crime. Sometimes you need to just get away and only one person can relate. Me and Jello are basically sisters. She is like family to me. My mom considers her family. No one really knows how we are. Yes we look and act completely different but that makes us so much closer.

i hate livejournal

gooodnight

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 04:56:26 GMT

fuck you if you think im ruining my life!
im over it.

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 18:47:13 GMT

Im very happpy with my life right now.
I have an amazing friend named Jello.
She seriously is the nicest person.
We have become so much closer in the past month
or so.
Were gonna stick together.
always.

I have the greatest boyfriend.
well 98% of the time.
haha
seriously though.
i think im fallinnng.
oh man.

the only thing i think sucks.
is how people drift.
I hate it.
you can be so close to some one.
then just drift apart.
but thats apart of lifee.

END.

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 15:24:44 GMT

Justin and I are back together.
Im happy with that boy.
he means alot.

Im going to TN in less then a week,
im excited.
Im going to miss it here.
but whatever i have to get away sometimes.
Jello is gonna help me pack :(

blahh.

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 18:20:14 GMT

I havent taken any pills or smoked in about 5 weeks
its getting easier.

I am back with Justin.
its complicated.
He means so much to me.
And I cant let him go.
We are going to work on things.

There are just some people you never get over.

I havent hung out with Jello in forever.
I misss her. We are always working. And if were not working were sleeeping.

I have slept alot.
i sleep till like 1.

ehh.

Wed, 24 May 2006 13:53:21 GMT

im changing myself.
Im done with the drugs.
They messed way to much up.

oh and im breaking up with Justin.
we are not working.
he never sees me.
It sucks.
I really liked him.
but then i thought of the things i dont need.
I dont need a guy that goes out every night and get trashesd.
I need a guy that is stable.
he isnt.
he has no job and got kicked out of his house.
He has a lot of problems
I think if I remain friends with him i will continue to like him.
getting over him wont be as hard as it was with john.
but its going to be tough.
i dont need him right now
he pisses me off when he says he will call me back and never does.
so i think im going to end all this.
it was fun partying with him and shit.
but my mom said she wouldnt trust me if i went out with him
my mom means more then a stupid boy.
so im going to be single. well as soon as i talk to this fuckerr

Mon, 15 May 2006 02:49:15 GMT

I have a boyfriend now.
Justin Mobley <3.
he is so greatttt.
too bad I cant remember how he asked me.
haha.

well I need sleeep.
goodnight

Thu, 11 May 2006 23:29:34 GMT

im very un healthy.
im always tired.

Tommorow night.
Im partying with Justin.
this should be fun.
:)

Sat, 06 May 2006 03:31:34 GMT

im gonna talk to him about all of this.

just dont know how.